La Bug-Clouds in my Coffee

[labug]

Well my attitude hit the effin' wall today. I've had a hard time with my emotions and have been very sad. I went to 2 meetings today (there are a lot of meetings around the holidays) and that usually helps me but I started crying as I was driving home. Then it hit me why I was feeling this way. Last year we went camping over New Year's with a club we belonged to. We had a great time (at least I did)and I was just so sad that things seemed to go so wrong, so fast. In reality, I'm sure he was not as happy as he was acting.

Then I was going to go to a movie by myself to get my mind off things. I got to the theatre early and as I was sitting in my car, saw different couples going in and started crying again. Came home, and am feeling better. But geesh, it's been a hard day.

Tomorrow will be better. Right????