Getting Better??

[irishblessings]

Snodderly - I do agree with you. My body language does probably reflect the tension I feel when they come around. I go about my business - smiling to people acting "as if" / but I am affected by their presence. I am sure that everyone who experiences an OW exaggerates their "awfulness" - but I am telling you this one takes the cake! It is unbelievable. And I am always the person who redirects conversations to see the best in situations/people, etc. Can't seem to do it here.

Anyway - my resolution this year includes betting better at letting go. Trying to stop anticipating interactions with XH/OW. Just let it go. I don't want to care about it anymore. I am sick of caring about it anymore. To be honest, I'm sick of caring or worrying about anything any more. I am just going to do my best to get MY life together - to get to a point where I am proactive and not reactive. I am overwhelmed with self doubt, fear, anxiety too often. I have to learn to let go.

I wish everyone here a happy, healthy new year! We absolutely DESERVE it!!