For the first time in over two years I recently started a new thread here.
Some may remember me, many will not, but I started here in 2002 when my ex H dropped the bomb. There was an OW, a lot of back and forth for several months, H returning home, H leaving again, H doing some incredibly hurtful and selfish things, eventual D, and H and OW eventually getting married.
I was great at DBing, and I do believe in it. But a lot of DBing is about working on yourself, which I learned in time (like many of us).
So as you can see I am not really a Newcomer. Most of what I am experiencing today is all relating to Surviving…healing a heart that is afraid of risk, dating, new R’s, fixing things about me that are probably still broken or in need of updates, etc…
I read some of the threads on Newcomers and I am in a different place, so here I am, back in Surviving.
That’s what I’m trying to do, Survive in a world post-divorce, when it’s hard to trust again, hard to let go, take risks, and no matter how much healing I think I’ve done, I learn that there is much more to do inside of me.
That inability to trust, have some faith, and let go of my heart is one of the biggest reasons I am here again. I gave up on a R that I had been in for 4 years.
I am here not just because of that R, but because I know I still have some work to do in me.
