She said that she is not sure that she is making the right decision about us, but she doesn't want to string me along because she may never be able to feel 'that way' about me again. She said she loves me and doesn't want to lose me as a friend.
I heard this similar thing from H.... and it's so confusing!!! The fact that they say "i still want to be friends' just lets you know that they are on a selfish train of thought right now... it's about what *they* want, what *they* think is best. I've had the thoughts like: "what they he!! about what *I* want?? When does that matter? Don't I get say in how my future goes too???"
I'm really sorry you've been in the dumps. I think many of on here are wrapping our brains around the fact that the New Year is coming and we can't stop it. I personally don't know how the world keeps on spinning and people keep living their happy f-ing lives around me because my world has come to a screeching halt!!!.... ok, that concludes our venting session for the moment. Please feel free to have yours now, ready....go! {obscenities, curse words, loud screams enter here.}
I'm not going to tell you to focus on you right now- I get tired of hearing that. Instead I'll just tell you that you're never alone through this. As much as you feel like you don't know which way is up and no idea where to turn, you can always come to our DB family and hopefully find a little comfort in the words of strangers.
(((((Sunshine)))))
M-31, H-31 T-9, M-7 S-6, s-20mth sep 8/1/11 ILYNILWY 11/29/11 Creating separation papers. Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12 H moves out 1.20.12
