Thanks Antonia! I'm going to start really watching out for my own reactions to triggers. Some are very small too. It's crazy.
The like the other day.. h came home from work and opened the garage door to bring trash cans in. It's been a long time since he has opened the door after coming in from work, but last summer it was a daily habit because he was hiding his copies of the CD's he had made for OW so he could listen to them in the truck. he would bring them in and hide them in the garage.
When I heard the garage door open after he pulled in, my heart sank and I got very shakey and anxious. Of course, this time he was just bringing trash cans in.
It's those little things that kind of bring me back into that time.
I checked out Pema Chodron's site. thank you for the suggestion!
I'm moving over into piecing, and have made a new post there. I hope to see you and everyone else there too. Thank you so much.... have a good new year.
