Too little, Too late.

[sunshine76]

Hey ((( Purg ))), I've been thinking and praying for you.

It seems like when our spouses go out of town (especially to visit friends and family) they seem to become even more callous towards us. I'm not sure what it is, but it sure stinks.

I can imagine how much it hurt your feelings to be lumped into the "friends" category by your husband. On a positive note, he didn't think it was a big deal because those were not his official orders. He let you know that he would speak to you first when he found out for sure what was going on.

Have you been able to speak to your H much about your health and how you are emotionally feeling? Have you asked him how he is feeling about it? I am only asking this because my W was diagnosed with cancer about 7 years ago and I know that it was a major blow to both of us and neither one of us knew how to deal with it. To this very day my W does not think that I was supportive enough during this time. I was supporting her in my own way, but I guess it wasn't what SHE needed. I am only bringing this up because I am sure that your H is scared sh1tless about your health as well and he may be scared to speak with you about it because then it will be real. You will probably need to figure out how to deal with feelings of resentment that you may develop towards your H if you do not feel like he has been there for you through all of this.

Try to hang in there, we are all praying for a positive outcome on your test results.