That's where I'm confused. There so many things I want to do for her: like the dirty talk she has with the other men...how would she react to that? Is it weird if I start doing it? If she's not attracted to me would this turn her off more?
I've wanted nothing more than to please her. I've been doing research for years on how to please her. I've watched numerous videos on cunnilingus, foreplay, positions. Not to mention the books I've read on the same subjects. She never has allowed me to do these things for or to her. I want passion, foreplay, spontaneity, kissing, touching, sharing moments where nothing else matters but her and I sharing ourselves fully with each other. Where two seem to be one. Those love novels women read....that is what I want. I think foreplay involves more than touching. I want it to start early in the morning and build throughout th day until she can't wait to get home. I want her to know that she is the most wonderful, beautiful, special woman in the world to me. I want to hold her in my arms after and cuddle. I want it to be special and not just a thing to get me off. I would rather do it less and do it right when we do. I feel like I've tried...really tried. I've tried spicing things up with games, movies, toys, costumes, handcuffs, blindfolds, you name it.
I don't mean to sound graphic, but I have wanted this since day one. I finally just gave up. Admittedly, I've had my problems. I certain my need to work on confidence. I could lose weight (84 pounds so far). I'm far from perfect.
So what do you think? Should I start trying to seduce her, or give her space? She seems to like dirty talk...at least with the other guys...do I start that? What about sending her pictures? Should I do what I want as far as seducing her from the moment she wakes up? I want to tell her who gorgeous she is...not just physically, but all the internal stuff too....her personality, talents...the little things that no one else sees that mean so much to me.
