feeling like giving up.....former DBing against OW

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I see no olive branch coming anytime soon...he keeps saying he doesnt want it to be this way, us not speaking and not having any contact but then when i finally cave and try like i did xmas, inviting him to meet us for hot chocolate he says no...so how DOES he want it?????.....
Im so tired of the whole thing...im just continueing on how i have been...pretty dark, not even contacting about S14... I would if there was an emerg. situation but there hasnt been so no need.
The boys will be gone the next 4 days...S14 is spending weekend with H...so i will be alone new yrs eve, no plans..most friends will be out of town. Im ok with that really...not in the mood to celebrate. Just glad this yr is over!!!..looking forward to seeing what the new yr brings.

Attorney is supose to be sending H our support agreement to look over...she got his paystub and ran the numbers on the disomaster...it came out considerably more then he expects...he is going to stroke out when he sees the numbers. But he wanted this...and i refuse to feel bad for him. But fully expect to start getting calls to discuss it when he recieves them....man, i just want it over...