I am scared if I go dark, then I am just pushing him towards her or someone else. When he tells me hates me, I don't believe it. I think deep down inside he wants to hate me but can't. I may be wrong here. I don't feel like I have pursue him. Am I missing something here?

H: 49
W: 47
D: 6
M: 6 1/2 yrs
H: Bomb #1 6-2010
H: Bomb #2 7-2011
H: Separated: 7-11-11
Reconciling 2-2012
Separated: 1-31-15 (I asked him to move out)