Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

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H has now been with the family for 6 days...sadly, I think that may be a record in the past 6 months since he started his A. He agreed to go to a counseling session with me next Tuesday. I am not really very optimistic about it, but at least it may allow us to start communicating about our situation.

I am also somewhat hopeful that OW will get upset when he's gone for 10+ days. When we had our blowout on Christmas Eve, H said she wasn't happy about things either. (You can imagine how sad I felt for her) It really took a lot of strength for me not to send an "F you" email to her on Christmas Eve night.

Anyway, I guess I'm trying to be as upbeat as possible but I also believe I am just treading water until we go to counseling. At counseling, I believe H will struggle to say he's willing to give up his A and do what he'd need to do to prove to me that it's done. It'll be interesting if our counselor has ideas for how to move forward. I feel very ultimatum-ish.

Hang in there everyone. I think there are several of us reaching our breaking points and I'm not sure that's a bad thing.