Shelby, so sorry you're having a rough time. Christmas sometimes s@cks for people like us. Here's a poem I wrote back when I was going through a rough time. The poems message is to stay the course. Things will get better, you'll think of him less and less. Be kind to yourself, when you find yourself thinking about him, acknowledge you're doing it and let it go...and, again, be kind to yourself. Thoughts are just that, thoughts. They come and they go. Anyway, here's the poem.
Stay!
Is there impatience? Stay! A mind that is weary? Stay! Is resentment taking over? Stay! A heart may be breaking Stay! What am I doing here? Stay! Is there an exit nearby? Stay! I can’t stand another minute! Stay! Come, roll over, sit up. Stay! I have nothing left inside. Stay... anyway!
