La Bug-Clouds in my Coffee

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I've been doing a lot of reading and thinking and have come to a deeper understanding of detachment. Detachment Does Not mean worrying abut whether every little thing I might do or say will in some way affect the R, either positively or negatively. Detachment DOES NOT mean that I obsess about what H may be doing or thinking.

Detachment DOES MEAN that we are each on our own path; H has opted out of relationship with me. I need to accept that and live MY life, my life without the spectre of him. My life without parsing every little fiddle-fartin' thing. I want peace and serenity and all this angst is certainly not conducive to that.

I have written a lot about detachment here and every day I think I get closer to actually living it. It ain't easy.

Now I'm thinking what my next step should be. I think I need to re-read Coach's old thread.