Not really mixed signals but eyes opener, from us to him:

5 months after bomb, XH asked the kids where and what they wanted to do. Their answer: " Lets go to matante's house and ride the 4 wheeler in her trails.( my sister's place )



A comment he made to me: " It was hard to do something with them on my own! "
I GAVE HIM A LOOK AND KEPT MY MOUTH SHUT.


I had 2 missed calls so i called him back
Me: " Did you call? "
XH: " Aaaah negative, aaaah maybe, i tought about it but, maybe? i don't remember if i did or not. I wanted to know how you were doing?
The funniest part, it wasn't him that called but one of my female friend.


He started seeing the impact of his crap in my life so he asked: " I feel bad seeing you like this. Do you want me to stop calling you? I think it is giving you hopes!
Me: " If you didn't see me or talk to me, would you feel this way?
XH without hesitation: "NO"
Me: " Than, for your own good, wouldn't it be better if you didn't talk to me?
XH: " I don't know! "


once, he stood by the counter and scrubbled on a piece of paper.
What a babe! Try,try,try, probably not for yourself!
need to let go forever.
Those were written while talking about coming home.