Well I just saw my W downstairs. I asked her how her mom and brother were doing (they both have health issues) she briefly responded and that was it.
This is the first time that I have seen her since I found out about OW and all the lying... I just feel disgusted when I look at her. I maintained my composure was upbeat... but the whole time I was thinking... I don't like you and I deserve better!
Up until this point I have admittedly been trying to DB for her. Don't get me wrong, I like the positive changes that I am starting to see in myself, but I realize that I was doing it so that she would take notice in me and not so that I would become healthy and happy. Well I think I just had a lightbulb moment. I am done making changes for her because quite frankly I don't see us working this out. From here on out the changes need to be about me.
M:(f) 35 W: 45 3 dogs and 2 cats T: 9 years 9/30/11 I love you, but I'm not in love with you OW confirmed 12/23/11
