What do I do next? Part 3

[luvhurts49]

Got to spend some time with my kids that last couple of days and boy does that make a difference. I love my kids with all my heart, but it really kills me that I don't get to see them everyday.

The W is being vicious again, accusing me of things that aren't true and again giving me different reasons for leaving. It seems like the reasons go back and forth on different things and how she is feeling on that day. If it was just the "I don't love you anymore" excuse and that was it, then part of me would understand, but when you leave and it's one reason, then a few weeks later it another reason, then a month later it's yet another reason, it gets really tiresome. I think she is just searching for a reason that makes sense to her so it can justify her leaving.

Her entire family has pretty much written me off and removed me from their lives, which is pretty sad really. I've know these people for over 20 years and now nothing. Hell, I even helped her two sisters learn to drive and tried to be supportive whenever possible, now it's like I don't exist.

I am getting really tired of this whole situation. One day it's one thing, the next it's another. I love my W and I love my family and it really hurts me to see the sadness and confusion in my sons eyes. If nothing else, I wish for his pain to go away, because for me, to see my son in so much pain hurts me more than my than my own.

I'm in this for the long haul and I won't give up. At times I may be down and feel like all is lost and when I do, I hope to be able to turn to this forum and its members for support, just as you have always done and for that I thank each and every one of you.