That's what I was thinking, but not disappear all together. But detach such as just not be available all the time especially when he has our D. It seems that the only time he wants me around.
I am such a push over. I feel like the only time my husband wants to see me is when he has our D. I don't mind because it's extra with my D. My D is suppose to be with him tonight but he called and said he needed to come by the house and pick up some clothes because it is suppose to be cold tomorrow. I said ok. He asked if I wanted something for dinner and I said no, that I would just throw a pizza in the oven. He said cool and came over. Then it was close to D bedtime and he said I will give her a bath here and put her to bed here and come back in the morning to take her to daycare. He said I could stay here or go to my place. I told him that it didn't matter to me so he went back to his house. I was a little disappointed but thats okay.
H picked up D this morning. He looked and smelled so good this morning I wanted to hug and kiss him. And out the door they went. How can he not want at least a hug and a little kiss on the cheek. I know these are baby steps and I hope these baby steps get bigger and bigger. I know I have to be patient, which is very hard for me.
While he was here, he received a text from OW. Which just pisses me off.
We talked for a while before he left. We talked about his and his life.
He gave me this big hug and a passionate kiss. I really miss him. I really don't know how to act when he is around. I came close asking him to stay the night, but chicken out.
I am sure since it's my turn to have our D, I will not hear from him until next week.
I did ask him if he had plans for New Years. He said no. I told him that my old son wanted to our D to his girlfriend's house because there will be kids there as well. Hint Hint, I am available, but he did not take the bait. Maybe I will just go to the movies by myself.
Oh, when he was here, I had him to do a little job for me. I could have done it myself, but I wanted him to think that I really couldn't. See when were together, I handled everything from finances and to repairing things at the house.
Last night after the hug and he was leaving, he said "I hate you". I just said "I know." I know he really doesn't, but why does he keep saying that? Is he trying to convince himself?
Also, how can I piece my marriage back together if the OW is texting him 9:00 at night? He read the text message but did not reply.
