Can anyone recommend good books on being a Christian forced into divorce? I did the standing for marriage thing with my first divorce and that didnt go so well obviously. i still have guilt even though neither divorce was my idea. My H isnt saved and i think that is the foundation of many of our problems. I am a Christian and thought he was too. So we think differently, our priorities are different, our outlook on the world is different. I need to not lose what i believe and who i am. moving is going to make it hard to find support at a church. I had quit going to avoid arguments with H.
So today H is looking for a part time job as a grocery bagger. Without my small salary he wont be able to keep up bills, much less buy a vehicle or pay for a lawyer. Huge blow to a man who was making $200k 5 yrs ago before the mortgage crisis and he lost everything. I dont know what would be worse- knowing hed rather work 2 jobs than be with me or if he wants me back wondering if he wants me or just help.
Why couldnt he just love me and be the man i fell in love with?
I know i have avery small window here to do the right thing and im trying to not blow it. H said last night that we wont make it, that we are just putting off the inevitable, that we are too different. Everytime i want badly to just beg himto fix this, i hear him say that andit stops me. Because if he really loved me, respected me, had any desire for a future together, he wouldnt say that. Hed fight for us, things would be different. I still want to crawl in his arms though. Acting as if is hard as hell in the same house and making plans to move out. but i feel its the onlychoice i have. Isnt it?
Me - 38, 2nd M, no living children, 1 forever 6 yr old boy H - 44, 3rd M, twins 16
Dating 4/07 M 10/08 Bomb #1 12/10 Bomb #2 1/11 Bomb #3 12/11
