Feeling kind of down today. I guess due the pull back from H last night and today. I know I shouldn't expect much from the last few days. I know it can be 3 steps forward, 2 steps back; that it's all part of the roller coaster ride. It still doesn't feel good though. I guess what bothers me is when he sleeps on the couch. Then my hope slips away and I feel alone. H was out at his soccer game pretty much all night and came home when I was going to bed. He didn't even say good night and fell asleep on the couch. I heard him get up to go to the bathroom closer to the morning, but he went back to the couch.
Work is pretty slow today, so that gives me a lot of time to think, which is not always good.
Anyway, I'll be home for a couple of hours tonight. I'm going to use this time to play with S and make dinner for H and S. Then I'm off to dinner with friends and I'll probably be out for a good 2-3 hours.
