WAW told me she idoesn't want to be married.

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Its funny how you talk about traditions and I said this to my MIL a few weeks back, after thanksgiving. Usually my W and I, in the past have alternated between our families. I told my MIL that years we don't come to her house for thanksgiving that my thoughts would be we do Xmas dinner. This way every other year we stay home and not go anywhere for xmas. Who knows if this will happen or not. But this is something I think I want to start. Having my family over every night at my moms for chanukah is just too much. Especially for me this year. I was just sitting and moping because my kids and W were not there.

W dropped my kids off at my office. They were very happy to see me and my W over packed for them to be with me this week. Just said bye to each other no big conversation. She did email and thank me earlier for an bday idea for her dad which is next week. She also text me afterwards that she forgot to pack kids some movies. Funny how going dark has made her reach out to me more it seems. Just keeping me in arms reach. She still is the first to make contact everyday.

As for new years most likely we will be at my moms with my family and the kids will play with my niece and nephew for a good bit of the night.

Got the basement set up now. I brought down my old twin bed from my sons old room and have it set up outside my bedroom. My kids will sleep in the bedroom and I will be in the sitting area. If I had them sleeping upstairs they would not be comfortable with me not within earshot.

A week of more firsts.

Oh also if my W logs onto here and looks at my posts maybe it will show her that I am trying.
I could have sworn I read in one of the letters a W gave her H the book and asked him to read it and everything worked out. Wish it were that simple. Hopefully there will be a day when I can do that.

Still wishing on 11:11 too. Also read a astrology thing that got emailed to me and it said to make a decision to cut something from my life and I will be much happier, whether it was job, relationship, home, or political and religious beliefs. Not sure how much I put stock in Pluto being in my orbit or not. But I would love it to be my job. I know I will be happier when I am out of here and not around family everyday.