Snodderly- I don't upset easily anymore! I appreciate your help and guidance and do not take it as you are trying to hurt me. That is why I am here- for help in dealing with this crazy ride!
I agree 100% that he still has one foot out the door. Almost like he is expecting it not to work, so he is prepared in case. I did tell him that I am also very guarded about where this is coming from/going and he told me he wanted me to keep my guard up. (I found this quite amusing)
As I have had time to process the whole conversation, I realize that although I do love him, I do not like him right now. He is someone I don't recognize. Or maybe I have changed enough to realize his true colors.
He wants to live a worldly life, not one devoted to God. This is a major division in our relationship. I know that God can change him and I will continue to pray for that.
Luckily our finances are separate and have been for a while. He is spending like crazy- I know he did get a raise at work (although he gets paid under the table, soemthing that I wholeheartedly disagree with). He will not talk about how much he makes, he just makes a biweekly deposit into my checking account for household bills.
Right now, I have zero expectations that this will work. I am going to continue with my life as if he did not even bring it up, and hope that he continues to make steps forward.
Cadet- Is there a link to that, is it a book? I have not heard of that, but will research it now. Thanks!
Me:37 H:44 M:13 T:17 S:8 D:9 H living in spare bedroom since 9/5/11
