I know I mentioned the early morning text from RC on Friday. I have not initiated any texts for the past week.

He left Friday afternoon to take his mom to his sister’s farm in the mountains. For some reason I had a feeling that I would hear from him while he was gone.

Once they arrived, he sent me a text to say that they arrived safely. I responded that I hope they enjoyed the drive since it’s such a nice drive.

The next morning I received a text from him, just telling me what he was doing. I responded. The texts continued for a couple of hours. Then he stopped (so I stopped).
Later that night I received another text from him.

The next day (Christmas) he sent me a text to say Merry Christmas and told me he was walking around the farm. He built a fire, etc… My parents were with me and asked who texted me, and I responded RC. They told me to respond to tell him Merry Christmas and they missed him, so I did. He responded with the same. Those texts continued off and on for a couple hours. Then he stopped (so I stopped).

Later that night I got another text telling me they were leaving his niece’s house and heading back to his sister’s. A few texts back and forth. Again, when he stopped, I stopped.

Monday morning, he texted me to tell me he was leaving for the drive back. I responded to be safe. A little while longer I received a text about a great deal he received on gas. I responded. A little while after that, I got a text saying he just bought his first Christmas gift for 2012 (he buys gifts throughout the year). I responded. He said he got it at a little place we used to go to that is on the way. I asked where the place was because I can never remember when I am making that trip. A few texts. Then it stopped. A little while later, I received another text saying that this goofy song was on the radio (one we’ve been laughing about lately – played in the gym when we work out sometimes). I responded. A little while later I received another text telling me he got home safely (it is a 5 hour trip, so the texts continued off an on for the duration of his trip). The texts stopped, so I stopped.

On Tuesday (yesterday and his first day back at work) I didn’t hear anything. That falls into the pattern.

I texted him late yesterday to ask if he was going to the gym because I was going to be late. He said he’d be there. Then later said he wouldn’t be able to go – he forgot he had to take Christmas presents to his sister’s son. I didn’t respond to the text for a change. I figured there was really no response needed.

Like I said I had a feeling that I would hear from him over Christmas weekend. I just didn’t expect so many text messages.

I know that RC and I have a lot of history together, and we have been up to the farm a lot. So he would have a connection there and want to share what he was doing. I would be able to relate to it, picture it in my mind, etc… I guess he felt a need to share it all with me.

And in some ways it was like he felt the need to check in with me, to let me know when he arrived somewhere safely, or was leaving somewhere. Those would have been normal when we were in our R. I just don't know that friends do that (maybe the best of friends, but I am not even sure about that).

I am trying not to read too much into this stuff, but it does make me shake my head.

Part of me was actually a little frustrated with him, wondering why he felt the need to share it all with me. At the same time, I felt bad for him, that he seems a bit lost on where his thoughts should be. I am guessing he has a lot on his mind.

Yeah, having him think about me and want to share those things with me – it was great. Then reality sets in again and I remember that we are supposed to be friends, just friends.


Me 47
Ex H 46
Bomb 9/02
D final 3/04
Ex H now married to OW

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