psalm, This positing is not meant to upset you, but I want you to be prepared for what may come down the pike because so much of what you have posted today has happened to all of us. I want you to be prepared. Okay?
Continue as you have been doing. I think he still has one foot out the door. From your posting, he has not terminated the lease for the apartment nor indicated that he has turned the utilities off.
He says that he wants to work on the marriage, etc. Time will tell if he is just saying that or if he does the actual work. They try to appease us by telling us what they think we want to hear. Please, please keep your expectations at zero.
Well, it sounds like he's got issues w/the church/religion and his life and money. Authority tends to be irking him now.
Psalm, I truly hope that the two of you can work this out, but please be prepared for him to bolt if he get to the point that he can't or won't do the work that is necessary to heal the rift in your marriage. I am also going to warn you...there may be someone else waiting for him in the wings...that you aren't aware of. No matter what he is telling you, if the urge gets stronger to bolt, he will find a way to do it and trust me, he won't care where the money comes from to set up his new place.
Please begin working on your financial situation to ensure that you are not stuck w/a lot of his bills, if he should leave. Make sure that you have your own checking/savings account and if you do nothing else, watch your joint credit card bills. I would even go as far as to tell you to begin the process of removing either your name or his from them. You do not want to get stuck with his bills if he should board the Mother Ship for the long MLC voyage.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
