WHG: When last we heard from our action hero...

[workinghardguy]

Thx CT... Sorry it's been so hard on your d. So far w and I don't have fights over the sitch or even discuss much, and when we do it's after they're in bed. I'm hoping a calm, united conversation will reduce the emotions. And the fact that we have answers and can tell them how their lives will be different will help. Of course all we can tell them is how they will be logistically different... We don't get to say how they will feel about those changes.

On here now because it's a tough morning and I just need somewhere to put my thoughts. W is up and getting ready to go see the rental house she may move to. Up to now it's been a somewhat academic exercise, but this is really driving it home (no pun intended).

Kills me that she's in such a good mood this morning. She came in the kitchen and started sharing a story from her visit to her friend's house last night. I listened for about 30 seconds and then excused myself to go get my exercise clothes on. Come back downstairs and she starts with another story about a different friend's abusive STBX and how he contacted her on Facebook. Again, listened for 30 seconds and excused myself to go run on the treadmill. I just don't have the energy to be happy guy right now so I'm just doing other things away from her.

I found myself wanting to hug her and give her a kiss so badly this morning. I know it's just a natural reaction to wanting what we can't have, and that it doesn't mean my detachment is failing.... I haven't acted on any of it and continue to act as if it doesn't matter.

Because it really doesn't . How I feel doesn't matter. It won't change things or alter things so no point dwelling on it. Going to shower, eat some breakfast, and play some Black Ops with my SS... At least that will give me a different focus.