Thanks for the suggestion, kml. I tried it out with a couple of different height measurements and found that I came up "overweight" both times. I don't think I'm particularly obese, but at least I'm not starving, either. On a related note, I have not given my OCD very much thought at all in the last few months. I'm not sure exactly what it was that I had, but it definitely seemed like my W and her reactions to my thoughts were the common denominator.
Among the many things I did today, I met for the first time with my EAP-appointed counselor. I like her a lot. Contrary to the C's I've seen before, she's very vibrant and openly displays a sense of humor that helped me feel comfortable around her. She is also solution-based, which is good since I only get 4 or 5 more sessions with her for free.
I dove right in and told her about my sitch. She really reacted when I told her about my W telling me explicit details about her sex life with OM -- said something like, "What the he!!? That crosses so many boundaries, it's unreal! It's almost like emotional torture!" She seemed surprised that I sat there and took it, although I explained why I did.
She also really latched on to what I told her about still wanting to be with my W despite the way that I'm being treated and sometimes feeling like an R with her would not be good for me. She said, "You seem as though you are in limbo, and I think that's really why you came here." Perhaps it was, among other things.
The rest of the day was great. A lot of stuff got done. (BTW, running in a heavy rain to Massive Attack's "Inertia Creeps" is an awesome experience. )
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