Thanks girls...i had a good day, but waited all day to hear from H, never did. Then got a text this morning saying happy bday yesterday, sorry...
So guess he forgot...obviousely not on his mind.

Something interesting happened today...i was going threw some things that i had moved out of old house and found a notebook that looked like an attempt at joyrnaling from H....it only had one day of writing from july 1st.
It said how he knew i had a lot going on with S21 (special needs) but felt like i didnt care if we worked things out and that i had made a comment about things going back to the way they were when we split up and how that was hurtfull...he was busting his butt to stay sober and he knew things were different.
It broke my heart..why didnt he ever voice these concerns??.. he never tried to speak to me about it...
It also showed me he lied when he said he wanted a divorce a year ago...this was the writing of a man who missed his family not wanting a divorce...and the A hadnt started yet...
Ive got a lot going threw my hwad now....

Me:48 H:42
M: 18 yrs.
S: 9/1/09 due to alcoholic H
D bomb: 9/9/11
OW confirmed 10/30/11
D papers filed 11/01/11
S15 S21(Special needs) S28

Look to yourself, It is there that all your answers are found...