OK - obviously we don't know everything going on with you. But I'm still reading your focus on HER and HER activities and HER new guy. etc. And how SHE doesn't acknowledge what she did to you. Or how SHE influences your kids. You cannot change her or her actions. You can only change YOU.
I know you don't want to talk about the discussion with ex MIL again but you wrote about it again today. "Let it Go" is the advice I gave you last week. But the reason I wrote my last post is because you are writing the same thing over and over again. You are not letting any of it go.
That's great that you are making some changes. But, although I do not care for ADs at all - sometimes you need them and it might be worth a consultation regarding your depression again. Often ADs are a lifelong drug although I'm sure know more about them than I do.
Antlers - sometimes I do kick your ass but I am trying to get you to turn a corner. It's coming up 3 years for you and although we all move forward at a different pace - it seems you've been stuck for a while. In all honesty - I do not think you are over your ex. I think you kept hoping she would come back and now that she is in a committed R (not unusual at the 3 year mark) - the finality is causing the reality of the situation to hit home.
Just trying to read between the lines. Nothing wrong coming here to vent - we have all done it. But we don't usually hear the same thing repeatedly - venting is usually about new developments.
Hope your C is helping you and is solution focussed.
