Getting Better??

[AntoniaB]

IB you sound good. I applaud your wanting to go out and have a social life. I was doing the social life awhile and then tried the dating and was not ready plus didn't find anyone really worthwhile for me, and the silly thing is that now I have zero interest in dating anymore...and I just want to go out once in awhile and meet people, male and female, and enjoy myself. So in the past week, I got hit on 3 times. I have NO INTEREST. I'm sitting there each time thinking, why can't you guys just TALK to me? Why do you have to have an agenda that you're trying to hook up? Eww.

It kills me. Somehow my NOT wanting to date is a magnet ;-) So be ready: it may happen to you too! But you can do whatever you want, and if you don't want to date and just want to meet people and have fun as you define fun (which for me is pretty darned conservative compared to what some people mean by fun) then that's YOUR choice. You make the rules.

I thought about XH a lot during the holidays as he is still in my head more than 50% of the time, but like you, it's the him that he was before he became an immoral, deceptive, betrayal-rationalizing child. On my way home from my parents' house, I vowed that his antics aren't "excusable" just because he was a wonderful husband for many years. I feel like you are coming to that point too...and guess what?

I think that means that for Christmas, we got our self-respect back. A nice gift, isn't it?