Getting Better??

[irishblessings]

2nd Christmas unmarried (1 separated / 1 divorced). Spent Christmas Eve and Christmas Day with family and friends. Very thankful. XH called middle D at around 4pm Christmas Day. He and OW were "playing cards". Middle D hangs up and says = "Wow, he's got such a better life." We smile at each other and go on enjoying each other's company.

I am proud of myself for the holiday I provided my kids. Great food - good times.

I would be lying if I said I didn't miss XH. I did - but I missed the man he was - NOT the creep he is today. Crazy thing - son met up with him the other day to work out in the gym. Son came home and said "Mom, it was so embarrassing. My friends were with me and Dad actually smelled so bad!" I just played it down but something is definitely wrong with him.

Here's where I am now - I want a social life. I don't think I am ready for a date yet - but I want to go out. I've signed up for a tennis league and a new gym. I'm hoping that by beginning to surround myself in environments not defined by marital status might help me feel better.

Hoping for a great new year! It's been a LONG time!