The past two weeks I have let some of my GAL go. We are hitting the dead of winter here in the mountains and I'm a bit stuck sometimes. It's OK because we are preparing to move in Feb, and I'll be going where I can do much more.
I'm seeing a pattern taking place in me...
I'm fine and H and I are having good days together, and the intimacy is going great.
Then suddenly I feel anger and sadness take over, and I just want him to leave me alone. I find myself withdrawing inside.
Then it goes back to me wanting to be close to him again...
Maybe this is me trying to protect myself.
H and I were talking last night and he told me..that he could see what I was going through and that he felt guilt for it. He wants to take it away and knows he can't. He wants to build trust, and knows it's going to take a long time.
I wonder if I will ever be able to fully trust him again. That scares me.
