living in limbo

[learning2listen]

barely floating.. thanks for letting me rant.. today seems jsut as any other..
except my h now lives 130 miles away.. I sent him a text saying i hoped the move went well and good luck on his first day with the new place..

He responded with a huge text rambling on as to how everything cost more than he expected and the remodeled apartment wasnt quite done, but then ended it with that the apartment is warm and cozy, he seemed in good spirits..

I deliberately wasnt in town this Christmas, I thought it would be better for me and the kids to be with my family.. I think I was right..

I have no idea what the future holds, I just know this is beyond painful and I wish for some sign of relief..