I guess you are right. It's just killing me that this isn't happening any faster. I broke down and looked at the FB page again today and learned how happy everyone was this Christmas because EX was home and her new boyfriend stayed there as well. I'm just sick of it. Sometimes I just want to give up on it. It's so obvious she doesn't want to talk to me. I don't think I can ever truly let go though. I'll just have to stop talking to her for a while I guess. The thing is, I'm so afraid that that's exactly what she wants me to do and she will never text or call or come back if I do that. Part of me wonders that if I can keep some contact with her, she will see that she wants to come back. I just don't see how she can want it to be over I guess.
Anyway, I will cut off contact for a while and make an appointment to speak with my DB coach. I'm burning through those sessions though. Last time I spoke to her, I rated our relationship as a 3. I'd have to say it's gone down since then. I went about 12 days without talking to my EX, and nothing got any better.
