It's been a very L O N G year!

[FreeBird0120]

Oh MZ, I'm so sorry you're feeling so down. I know exactly where you're coming from though. I too go to that "dark place" and I feel like I can't breathe. All of the things that I know about them, that I wish I didn't know sometimes just flood in like a tidal wave, and we are just hit so hard with it unexpectedly.

Try to put up those stop signs, I know it's so hard, and I hate when I'm told that, but don't let it get the best of you.

For what it's worth though that's why we're here, so lay it on my sister...vent to me and get it all out. I am and always will be here for you.

Maybe you should tell him how you feel. Let him be there for you to help you through it. I know that's what I do when I just can't take it anymore. As much as I hate him at the time that I'm going thru the dark place, once I've told him where my head and heart are, if he tries to make it better by holding me, showing me remorse or just telling me he loves me, I start to feel so much better.

I once told him that when I'm not doing so good and start pushing him away, that's when I need him to hold on tighter, to show me that my decision to work this out with him wasn't for nothing. Just hold on tighter...

<<<<HUGS>>>>> MZ...

I'm thinking of you!!