WAW told me she idoesn't want to be married.

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VC funny and ironic i Have never actually seen the movie. Isn't richard gere in that?

Today was a ok kind of day. Went to the gym and worked out then made some stops on my way back "home" aka moms house. Got back in my car to go to the mall and missed a call from my w's best friend in California, also a Psychologist. This girl is like a sister to me and stopped talking to me a few months back. She had some health issues and some work things going on according to her. I think she stopped talking to me cause she new my W was with the OM. Which she does.
I found the timing very odd. She said she wanted to catch up while driving up the coast to visit friends and we haven't spoken in a while. She wanted to see how I was doing.
I told her everything including thinking she chose sides cause she had too. I informed her of my changes and my goals to help out at philabundance, habitabt for humanity, go ski again, etc.
The whole time I am speaking with her I am thinking in the back of my mind is she doing this cause W asked her to call me and sort of get an update on the inner workings of my mind and where I am.
So I let it out. Told her about the board here and how people here understand what I am going through. How I am changing for the better and taking action not sitting in the back seat anylonger, looking for new work, how I want to work everything out with my W and how together we can get past this whole year and the OM and come out as a stronger more loving couple. Told her how I won't let this happen again whether it is with my W or if I move on with whomever I am with. But I would like it to be with my W obviously.
After the conversation went inside and my neice and nephew were there. It was the 7th night of Chanuka. My family has been here every night and it is honestly too much. I love/hate my family these days but I have realized my W was right the holidays they go a little overboard and I need space. Especailly since we lived in LA for 7 years away from them.

Its late and I feel I am babbling. All in all it was a good holiday but this week is going to be tough. I have my kids from Wed to Sunday night, which will be fun, but I know my W will be with OM for new years eve. Another first time for us. I wonder how she will technically be. Have to wait and see.