WHG: When last we heard from our action hero...

[workinghardguy]

I got COD: Black Ops for SS. We spent part of today playing it. We also got the Kinect and two Kinect games... they are awesome fun, especially for SD and S.

Journaling... one of those days... so you may recall I didn't know when W would get home, but she had to work this morning. Well... 2:30am I wake up, no W. I start to fret but let it go and actually fall back asleep (though I did take some Tylenol PM, figuring it may be a rough night). About 4:45am I wake up... still no W. Now I start to worry... is she hurt? dead? in jail? I almost text/call her, but don't. C'mon... the odds of that are low... I go back to sleep. About 10 minutes later I get a text from her telling me she passed out at her BFF's house (three blocks away), her headache is still terrible (gee, wonder why!), and she is going to go in to work late. I'm fairly proud that I didn't reply... I just rolled over and went back to sleep.

S got me up a little before 7. Then I remembered W's text, so then I texted her back with "K. Hope you feel better." About 15 minutes later she gets home (I'm guessing my text woke her up). She goes upstairs to bed for a few hours, telling me she called work and told them she'll be in but about noon.

And really I was pretty at peace with the whole thing. Was she screwing "crush guy" over at BFF's house? Maybe. Probably. Maybe not. A month ago I would've loaded my S up and driven over there to spy. See if crush's car was there, try to look in the windows, etc... I had that urge this morning, but let it pass. Whatever, her life. We're done.. at least right now we are done as a married couple, and I'm accepting of that. Right now is all about the future.

I end up running to the store to get a cable for the Xbox. I stop at Subway and grab a sandwich. I grab one for my W too... she'll be hungry when she wakes up. I know some will say not to have done that... that it's pursuing... but in the case I see it as detaching. She came home at 7am... after a night of drinking and is going to be late to work because of it. And I'm not mad... and I'm really not. It's her life. Not only am I not mad, here's a sandwich I would've done it for a friend, so I'll do it for her.

She wakes up and is surprised at the coffee and sandwich. She tells me thank you for both. The thank you was fairly formal, but genuine. I've noticed she's always more cold and standoffish after being around her crush, or it may just be reaction to yesterday. Anyway, she leaves for work and I don't hear from her again until she just got home. And then she went straight to bed, though she did tell me good night.

The day was pretty good. Did some cleaning while the kids enjoyed their presents. Lost my cool a little bit at one point when kids trashed a room I just picked up, but we sat down and discussed it. S is still sick and the steroids make him jittery and hyper... that got old today. But overall a fun day... weather was beautiful so we did get out for a walk... S got a scooter for Christmas and was dying to take it out for a spin

Tomorrow back to work for a bit... W is working 48 hours this week so won't see her much at all.

The two negatives for the day were... a) this marks the first time where W's drinking has impacted her ability to go to work. I'm hoping this is not the start of a new level of drinking behavior for her, and b) SD noticed that W had taken down the wedding photos and asked me where they were. I just told her mom must have taken them down to clean them. Yeah.. that's it.