okay...where is MrBond at? I need him to knock some sense into me. I'm paranoid. My W says that I have been grilling her about everything. I tried to explain to her that I just found out a lot of information I didn't know about and that it's a lot to process. I told her that I'm fearful because I know this is our last chance for us. I don't want to split because of the kids....but I will. She said she wants to work on it, but she doesn't. She doesn't because of the attraction issue. She does for the kids.

I feel like she's lying to me about stopping the texts and emails. In fact, I will bet you money that she is. I asked her to reply to the texts and emails to tell them to stop contacting her. I explained it's important to me to do this. All of this stuff needs to stop. I don't want a roommate, I don't want to be friends. I want a wife. If she can't do that then she needs to let me know so I can move on. I don't think the kids need to see a dad that's miserable...or parents that just exist with each other. I have friends that had parents do that and they just wished they divorced. The kids need to see how a healthy relationship functions. How to solve problems.

I know I seem to be pushing...but I need to know if there's a chance for us. I can't deal with this pain anymore. Enough is enough and I need to know either way. If her heart is not in it then forget it.

That's how I feel at least....Now smack me around and tell me how I'm wrong. While you're at it, will you tell me what to do? wink