Hey IS it's good to see you back. Maya Angelou says, "when you know better you do better." It sounds like you now know better and are making great strides in doing better.
Maybe I KNOW that internally but I'm hanging on for--- what??? Perhaps the idea of the R how it 'should' be?
I understand what you are saying. When I was growing up I never fantasized about getting married or having a wedding, but the one thing that I knew without a doubt that I wanted was to grow old with someone that I loved. It never even occured to me that it may not happen. Now we have to go back and re-evalutate what a 'relationship' truly means to us and I am pretty sure it doesn't look like our current relationships.
My IC once told me it was a loving thing to try to change for someone, but not to get LOST in the other person's needs/demands. Now I 'get' what he meant.
When the student is ready the teacher will appear
It sounds like you are really beginning to dig deep and analyzing your current situation.
Hang in there I think you are about to turn a corner and begin discovering that you are stronger than you ever realized.
M:(f) 35 W: 45 3 dogs and 2 cats T: 9 years 9/30/11 I love you, but I'm not in love with you OW confirmed 12/23/11
