What else could I have done?

[antlers]

Nope. I'm genuinely sad that I treated her the way I did. I am responsible for treating her that way, and I am responsible for the results of that behavior...including what I'm feeling. I've owned what I did from day one. I do appreciate your 'in the face' reality. But, anything I feel, any pain, remorse, etc., I feel it because I'm sad that I did it. I was responsible, and she's not responsible for those hurtful feelings. I've never said, or felt, otherwise.
She is responsible for the pain that I feel as a result of her infidelity though, and her deceit.
I know in my heart that I've changed. I did because I needed to. Period.
I can't count on anything, other than the fact that I have to get over this if I want to live a happy remainder of my life...and I do!
I've sure been feeling a lot of very sad things lately though. I'm 99% sad because of my actions in the past toward people that I cared about. Even though I've forgiven myself, and I truly have...I still have a conscience.