The thing is that I'm so sick of the lies that I want a divorce. I want to be done with it all. I know that I am feeling this way purely out of emotions. I just feel like I owe it to my kids. I don't even like this woman much anymore...I love her, but I don't like her. I feel rage and hurt. I'm hoping all of this will change, but it's not looking so good. I'm tired of the pain, I'm tired of being told that I'm not attractive, I'm tired of not being able to trust someone, I'm tired of being told that they desire sex, but not with me.
My thinking with the divorce is that either we work it out or I'm done. It's not a tactic. I just want to move on with my life with or without her.
