What do I do next? Part 3

[luvhurts49]

Well, I made the first mediation appointment today. I guess the end of my M is closer than I want it to be, but what else can I do? This is all moving too fast. I feel like my life is out of control and the only end that I see is one that has me and my W apart. Today is hard because I am not in control of my emotions and I have this painful hurt in my heart that will not go away. I cannot stop thinking about my W and what it is that I am losing.