Merry Xmas to you too vc and to everyone on here!!
Been off the boards for a while, I was really down for a while and just needed to be alone with my thoughts, didn't think being I here would really help
My wife and I finally spoke, it was basically over the kids and a conversation we had to have, it was nothing heavy and neither spoke about us or the past so it was fine
The kids spent Xmas eve and Xmas morning with her, I got her some nice things from the kids, nothing specifically from me I always got her nice things, so it seemed the right thing to do
When the kids came they said that mum really liked them and said thank you
I had the kids all day and night while wife went to her sisters for dinner, she texted the kids most of the day, it's obvious it hurts to be away from them, I know!!!
Then my daughter said that mum was home, it was only early and I knew om is away working, so I sent her a text saying if she wanted to come and see the kids, it was fine I knew how hard it is She replied thanking me and said she would ask the kids what they wanted
Anyway long story short, she came over for an hour, kids were excited, and it was nice
We ended up talking between us, she was asking about how the drinking was going, work, etc All nice and civilized, we laughed about a few things and it was really relaxed
Then she went, afterwards I was a little sad, I have been through a tough period, really missed her, but got through it, after she went, I know more than ever I want her back!!
She has called a few times today to speak to the kids, but we spoke also, all light and easy
I don't want to mind read but I saw in her eyes last night that she loved me
Don't know what will happen, but we were a happy family of 4 last night, she knew it, the kids did and so did I
Don't know if it will change things, but I'd be amazed if she didn't think about things today
