First post, words of wisdom needed

[sunshine76]

Hey Kaffe, I appreciate your honesty. Not what I wanted to hear, but needed too.

Journal:

ugh I can't stop crying today. I think the reality of my sitch is sinking in. My W will be home in 3 days and I am going to have to try to put on a smile, pretend that I have no idea what has been going on and try to push back visions of her sleeping with OW.

I just feel totally overwhelmed, out of control and utterly sad.

In my previous post I talked about some of the 180's that I have been doing(that I thought were working), but now I am wondering if I was being a doormat. She responded positively to me, but I guess if someone was waiting on me hand and foot I would probably be nice to them as well.

Her love languages are words of affirmation and physical touch (she also loves my sense of humor).

Lately I have just been trying to be light hearted and joke around with her and I throw a compliment in here and there, but I don't want to make her uncomfortable so I don't go overboard with the compliments.

I could really use some advice with 180's. I admittedly stink at DBing, but I am making an honest effort.