Destiny, Pull yourself together! If he's as depressed as you have indicated in your postings, he's going to pull away. The holidays are a downer for most depressed people. Leave him alone and put the focus back on yourself. Stop watching his every move and live your life. What do you normally do during the day? If you have a routine that normally follow for the week, then get to it.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
