Oh, and perhaps try routrevaille (sp?) if she is willing.
Yes, she is willing to go. However, it's not until March.
She tells me that she loves me, but is not attracted to me. Is that a mental thing right now because of the miserable marriage? I have gained a lot of weight...I got up to 334 pounds and I'm 6'. I've lost quite a bit since I'm now down to 264 pounds. I don't mind losing the weight....I want to. Will losing it make a difference though? What about when I'm 50 and I get wrinkles and gray hair?
Then, if she's not attracted to me, why would she be willing to go to get counseling and work all this stuff out for the kids' sake?
I'm lost....I think the mixed messages indicate she may be too.
Okay, so I decide to stay. What is my next step? I don't trust her anymore. I'm paranoid. I wonder if my heart can take anyore.
I feel like I should know these answers, but I'm caught up in the whirlwind of it all that I cannot seem to get a clear view.
