HG you really need to get a medical check. I too have angry outburst. In 26 years I have lost my temper with W about 7 times. This summer I got really nasty and did the same you did. Told her to file and she did. Be careful what you ask for. Are u in individual counseling? Are you going to church? I don't think you can say anything that she will believe any more. Now is the time to act.
My father screamed at my mother every five weeks. He died a few months back. My mother told me that she hated him at the end. Unless you change nothing will happen that is good. I still struggle with passive/aggressive behavior but once u acknowledge it than you can act on it.
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”