Yay Val!! Merry Christmas!! You really have come a long way. I completely understand about wanting to reconcile vs. your own happiness, etc.....
I am agnostic, as you know, but I am beginning to believe god or something has made sure we are all where we NEED to be at the moment so we can grow into what we are meant to be--- which we wont see for a while.....unfortunately!!!
Please continue to pray for me, Val, as I am about as low as I've been through this whole journey. I've had almost suicidal moments (saved by my thoughts of S honestly!!!) and moments when i feel completely useless due to W's opinion of me and her casual dismissal of our THIRTEEN years...... You are an inspiration and I do hope you will keep us updated --- and as I say, please pray for me. I need it really really reallyyyyyyyyy right now.
And in my own way, I've been praying for you my friend as well. ((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))))
Me (f): 45 W(f) 35 T: 13 y C: S4 adopted at birth 6-18-11 bomb: I want to break up 8-28-11 OW confirmed
