No, the cocktail will put you to sleep for a short time, then wake up at some crazy time wide awake!! Been there.... did you get the melatonin? Or even go to dr. for ambien? I personally swear by xanax the past couple of months.
Yes,it is SOOOOOOOOOOO hard to see my formerly loving W sitting there texting OW for literally hours (read my whole sitch, it's pretty pervasive!!) The pain is visceral and I cannot figure out what to do to make it go away.
I posted on a livestrong website under an article about detachment. If you look there you may be able to find me and connect with me on fb.
I loved San Francisco. it is the world's coolest city!! I went to college there, and fell in love with the whole ambiance of the place. I'd move back there in half a heartbeat if my sitch was different!!
I remember WELLL the nights of no sleep. I didnt sleep for at least a good week after I found out for sure about OW.....I still have them occasionally, especially when W and I have one of those gd R talks that never bodes well for 'us'. She's "done" and "So ready to move on with OW"..... Sh@t.... those nights (last night) I sleep very little, even with xanax. I got netflix recently and have started to watch comedies to fall asleep to. Does it help? Well, I guess somewhat.
My struggle is ---- we've had SOOOOO much time together. HOW am I so disposable to you? I feel like yesterday's garbage, you know?? Like I said on my own thread, I'm pretty emotional today. Damn holidays!! Tomorrow I am going to W's parents to see S open his gifts there, but then??? Will I stay an hour an be expected to leave? Will they ask me to lunch/etc... I am so ready to just SLEEP for a LONG LONG time without waking up --- I always say March sounds good.
LOL. Again I'm so sorry u are here, but glad you found our club!!!
Me (f): 45 W(f) 35 T: 13 y C: S4 adopted at birth 6-18-11 bomb: I want to break up 8-28-11 OW confirmed
