What else could I have done?

[antlers]

I've apologized many times over the past 3 years. It doesn't seem to have mattered. And I've asked for forgiveness in several instances over the last 3 years. She refuses to give it.
"The relationship is over and I am working very hard to cut my losses."...I think that accepting that and 'letting go' is the key for me. I think that, in and of itself, will help me more than anything at this point. I'm struggling with it, but I certainly want to do it.

"Whether he forgives me or not is irrelevant."...that is what I'm being told also here by many regarding my circumstances. It makes all the sense in the world, and I believe it's true. It's just hard to do. But I want to truly have that attitude...that knowledge and belief.