First post, words of wisdom needed

[sunshine76]

Journal:

Well I took everyone's advice and did a little GALing yesterday. I called up the only person that I know here and we took the dogs for a long walk. After that I went with her and her partner to walk around and look at christmas lights. Looking at the lights was kind of a bummer because I wanted my W there and than I kept thinking to myself that she was probably doing something similar with OW and not even giving me a second thought. Oh well, I got out of the house so I am cutting myself some slack and giving myself a little credit.

My W comes home on Wednesday and I am really scared how she is going to act towards me. I am living in my W's house (her dad passed away and left it to her). I can only imagine that the OW is not pleased that I am still here and that my W is going to take it out on me when she gets back. Up until a couple of days ago I would have told you with absolute certainty that even if my wife did ask me to leave that she would have given me as much time as I needed to find a place, but given the fact that I no longer feel like I know who I am dealing with I am scared and don't know what to expect.

I am thinking that it would best to make sure that I am not home when she gets here that way she has time to come in, decompress, go to her room... and hopefully I can sneak back in and not have to see her. Any thoughts on how to handle her homecoming??