First post, words of wisdom needed

[2thepoint]

"I am so effing mad and hurt right now. I think the only reason I am posting is to stop me from throwing my computer. I don't understand this. She has always been honest to a fault and now she is telling all of these lies!!"

This is typical WAS behavior. She is an alien at the moment and unfortunately, you are just going to have to get used to this. Just remember, have no expectations whatsoever!! If you can do this well, it will go a lot easier for you!

"I feel like such an effing idiot! It's not like she is cheating on me because she did say that she wanted to date other people, but I out and out asked her on several occasions if there was someone else and I could see it in her eyes that she wasn't telling the truth which made me absolutley crazy."

I know this is making you crazy Sunshine and I'm sorry you are having to deal with this. Just know that this is par for the course as the expression goes. Your W has dumped you emotionally, and feels free to do whatever she wants. The fact that she lies about seeing someone else is maybe a small sign that she is ashamed of her actions even if she can't help them or stop them at the moment.

Try to hang in there!