Focus on the kids and just spending some fun time with them. I swear your H will eventually regret this...he's so far gone that you should not feel bad about yourself. Try a run...that does usually help.
I wish I could help you with $ or take you to dinner tonight!
Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday...you will be stronger for this in the end.
M 44, H 46 D11, D9, D5 Married 12 years PA confirmed 9/2011 I filed 3/2012 H moved out 7/2012